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| So Jen's leaving for Chicago in the morning and I'm taking her to the train station around 8:30. Maybe I should feel upset that she didn't give anyone much notice, but at the moment I sort of understand why she did it. We all need to get out sometime...what's life without being able to say you did anything spontaneous, whether for the better or worse? I've been feeling insanely restless and impulsive lately and it has nothing to do with all that ^. There is just so much out there I want to see and I feel like I'm stuck--people say that it takes a lot of courage to do the whole college thing while trying to "better yourself"?...I truly think that the most courageous people are the ones who are able to throw it all to the wind and not care...and just trust that things will sort themselves out. It takes so much courage not to care. I really want to go for a drive, except I have no decent music to fit the mood and I don't feel like going to the atm for gas money. Not that there's anything new to explore around here...but I just want to get in the car and keep driving without a care in the world. However, I have an exam at 12:30 and alas, I still am trained into thinking that it takes prevalence over anything else. I can't really pinpoint how I feel...I'm almost to the point of tears, yet I don't know why. I think I am too much of a dreamer. There are so many things I always daydream of, but I feel like I've accomplished so little in my nineteen years on this earth. Sure, I've got a job and am in college, which I guess some people believe deserves some sort of merit, but I just feel caged in for no apparent reason. Although maybe this is all due to what I'm listening to. Maybe Garden State and its soundtrack can do this to anybody. I think it's entirely possible. Anyway, I hope that Chicago works out for you, Jen. I'll miss you but I know everyone has to get out sometime and I guess it's just sooner for others rather than later. Have some adventures for me. | | |
| Summer 2008.
Current mood:  hopeful So I was driving home from Jennifer's house in Roanoke as I saw a mini-van from California pass me in the middle lane. "Huh, they've got a far way to go 'til they get back home," I thought. But then I realized--where have I been? Granted I'm only 18 (soon to be 19!) years old and I suppose I'm well-traveled for my age, considering I've driven to Pennsylvania a few times, gone to Boston, and driven to Roanoke many times within the last year or so. But I haven't gotten out and really seen it yet. I'm going to start working again soon and although my first monetary priority will be saving up for a new car, I need to take a roadtrip. There are so many people I'd love to see along the way and since Lora's in California everyone will practically be on the way. It's something everyone always does in the movies and for once I'd like to follow their example. You can't live all your life stuffed in a little cardboard box...or only in one city. It'll be awesome and I'll take my camera with me. Summer 2008. | | |
| There is this girl on myspace who wants to randomly meet up and have sex. Haha...how weird. I also have a paper due today and I don't want to go to class. I wore a skirt today and I forgot to put lotion or baby powder on my thighs...they're chafing like mad. ;_; This library keyboard is really loud. I feel like people are going to stare at me as I'm typing. Jennifer from Roanoke is visiting this weekend! We might actually go clubbin'...haha. Word. /pointless entry | | |
| It's almost 3 am and since I'm a) pulling an all-nighter and b) supposed to be finishing a paper, I logically decided to make an effort to revive my ever-neglected blog. Since I am supposed to be writing a paper about abstinence-only sex education without once injecting my opinion, I am finding some difficulty in fulfilling this task. As a result, I will insert my opinion here--I think teaching every teenager in America not to have sex until marriage is stupid. For starters, it's not practical since most of them do it anyway. Secondly, what about all the people who, due to the discriminatory laws in this country, won't likely be able to marry? I suppose if I engage in any sexual act it will be seen as an irresponsible abomination. It all comes down to this question--would you rather your kids start having sex while still uninformed of the consequences that could potentially arise if not done safely? In other news, I'm leaving for Boston on the morning of February 3rd and am psyched. It's always nice to get away for a few days and life isn't really exciting without something to look forward to, right? I should have that covered--Boston in Febrary, Pennsylvania (yay!) in March for spring break, and Hawaii in May (double plus yay...1984, anyone?). I can also celebrate during April due to the last days of classes. As the sweet sounds of Daddy Yankee fill the air I realize life isn't looking so bad. | | |
| I came to realize that I am neglecting my myspace/facebook/xanga blogs so I am going to try to correct this problem. Anyway, not much has been going on really, except that second semester of school started last week. My classes are alright. I don't think I'll like my english class much but if it's composition there's not much to like anyway. I think that my women's studies class will be the most interesting--finally a class where my question of "how come guys can go around shirtless in 120 degree weather while women have to sweat to death?!" is relevant. I like my teacher too; she prefers that we call her by her first name, Vaughan, so I think it'll be a rewarding class and maybe I'll make it a minor or something. Astronomy looks halfway promising, but the required math (Algebra and trig) intimidates me. I can do it but I really don't like to. On a lighter note, I'm still having to cuddle with Romeo at night. Not that it's a bad thing, since I love him to pieces and he's my baby, but I need female companionship other than Mandy. Sometimes she smells funny. Or maybe I just need a few random sexual encounters. Or maybe not. I'm also glad that Marshall's bill to keep single women from receiving any reproductive help such as artificial insemination. Seeing as the way things are going these days, I'll be legally single my whole life even if I have a really long, lasting and meaningful relationship. I'll be damned if that guy could keep me from having my own children. I want to adopt someday too, but he's just a bigot nutcase. Anyway, that is all. I think I've been random enough for one night. | | |
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